One of the first things I’m charged with doing this week is entering my needs, I’m not sure if these are my final ones, yet these are them as it stands on Sunday. During the exercise, I was drawn to them almost immediately (though didn’t necessarily “feel” them): Autonomy and True Health.
So, FOUR days with minimal television. Now THAT is something for me. My habits WILL change: I WILL keep working on me! On Tuesday I enjoyed a revelation – just because I couldn’t start my day as planned (hitting my MKE tasks) didn’t mean I had to abandon them (I am a stickler for routine and discipline – maybe that’s a habit?!). I just re-ordered my thinking and hit the ground running with them a little later than I expected. No harm, no foul. See, I tell myself – I didn’t die!This week I already feel accomplished. Since I was out of town last week little gelled. The pieces are falling together more this week (well, with the exception of technology and getting this blog published!). Haven’t been able to master the site yet, but I was proud to pull off two-10 minute sits/meditations. Patience grasshopper (I tell myself this all the time). It will come. I will master it! Finally figured out how to organize my binders (and realized I didn’t have to print every attachment this week!). Now this week’s removing thoughts from my mind while I sit around is going to take A LOT MORE practice. And I already made a promise to myself that it WILL happen and I MUST continue to devote time to do so. I have also realized I have been concentrating so much during daily activities/living on not getting angry I have missed opportunities to see this week’s shape. It’s only when I’m checking off my activity that I realize this hasn’t been top of mind. Proud I’m not beating myself up on this – so something is working!
Each day, as I read my DMP aloud, I realize minor changes to make to it – and do. It, as am I, are a work in progress.
Loved the grasshopper reference. I am still working on fitting all the tasks into my day and realize that is because my Subby is squirming know it’s days of control are over.
I do relate to “Patience grasshopper.” I admire your persistence! Keep going!
I do relate to “Patience grasshopper.” I admire your persistence!
The sits get easier. I never sat still for 15 minutes in my life. Know I look forward to it. Very relaxing. How are you doing with thinking about nothing ? I think we’re learning and seeing how many thoughts are coming in all the time. Stay strong.
I’m really enjoying reading about your journey. You express what you’re experiencing so well.